Somedays I wish I could be the captain of the Flying Dutchman
Somedays I wish I could just lock the emotions that I hide from the world in a box and launch them into space. In the past year the ups and down have been crazy. I always feel that they’re either awesome times or shitty times. I guess I’ve just been feeling a bit lost without the medium grey area. The thing that scares me the most is the disconnection from myself as a person and some of the people I care for. I always just feel like it my fault. I’ve learn allot in the last year and a half about life and people in general. Just feel like I need a change in scenery and environment sometimes but then I can’t help wonder if its because I tend to run away from my problems or its what I actually need. I just wish that I didn’t feel so lonely all the time. Just wish I could find someone that fully understands me in and out from a point of view of stranger looking in and someone who can read me like a book. I wish that I just didn’t over think everything. Fuck being a Scorpio. Guess I’m just gonna get lost and listen to Brand New
